Blah!

The weather outside today actually matches the way that I've been feeling for the past few days. It's gray, gloomy, and raining now. We need the rain so I'm not upset with that but I thought it was ironic.

I'm a bit emotional but have kept control of it for the most part. I'm holding in the tears but have found that I could cry at the drop of a hat if I allowed myself to. Not exactly sure why, I know some of the reasons but I keep arguing with myself about it all. I shouldn't let some of these feelings get to me like this, I should be happy!

Part of me is mad that I'm not happier! Work hasn't helped the issue today. I have a lot of time that my mind can wander and I'm by myself, that's not good when you are feeling like this. Don't worry, I'm okay, just a bit sad. Wanted to share it and I'm hoping it'll be gone in a few days.

Anyway, this weekend was weird for me. No soccer! First time in 10 weeks and man, I missed it. I did get the sheets on the beds washed and changed. Started working on the basement for Shelly's visit in a few weeks. Had great intentions to make some phone calls but couldn't get myself out of the funk to do it. But I was productive so that's good news.

Now I have a headache, wow - does it end?